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first things first

I am going to camp! (Thanks to Kei for my sponsorship!)

And this is going to be my first camp experience ever!  excited much?! I am, so much that I even volunteered to design the poster below. 

the SSP-Zion Fellowship retreat poster I made.

the SSP-Zion Fellowship retreat poster

This will be on July 27-28 (Sunday to Monday). We were actually hoping that July 28 will be declared a holiday. But,  apparently, Eid’l Fitr holiday for this year falls on July 29 (a Tuesday). Oh well, I must pass a leave form and do advance work to keep up. Manageable and with time for adjustment! perfect!

Major plus that it will be held in Tagaytay! where the climate is cooler! I can escape metro manila’s oven like temperature. Hooray!

Its been ages since our last church outing. So, I’m thankful to have this opportunity to be with my brothers and sisters in Christ. Our topic for this retreat is apt for us working people, because sometimes our priorities are warped and we still don’t realize it. First things first! I usually claim to be organized and all but, I really fail this one from time to time. I must learn and learn till this is natural. Must improve the quality of my relationship with God. 

A few more days to go!

 

 

But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things shall be added unto you. -Matthew 6:33

 


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first post in 2014

Happy new year to everyone! 

mantra

 

This is what I intend to practice more in 2014.

No dieting goal, getting rich or traveling plans, nothing ambitious… just something realistic. 

Live frugally, get Kei to go out with his buddies more, more listening, and less talking. Because (I speak too much) at times I can be tactless.

What is yours?

 

 


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long time no see

I haven’t seen one of my cousins for over a year now. She moved to the States along with her little boy. I missed meeting up with them and chatting non-stop.

Now, I only see/talk to them on Facebook. I was informed that they sent us stuff. And because it is Christmas I want to make my own “Alis-bayan” box to send to them. (Alis means to go away in Filipino, Bayan means country. So an alis-bayan box is basically a box of stuff that will be going away from the country.)

how do I make one alis-bayan box?

how do I make one alis-bayan box?

I have never made a alis-bayan box before. Honestly didn’t have much clue as to what my cousin and my nephew wants…

So, I am thinking of sending them some Pinoy favourites that wont easily be shaken up/ expire. My list consists of: a calendar and a memo pad I made, some pugad baboy comics, pili nuts, mango jam, dried mangoes, pastilas (candy made of milk and sugar), polvoron, chicharon, chocnut (peanut milk chocolate) and maybe some cashew nuts.

 

*Sigh* Is it possible to send a heart on a box?

 

“Because I miss them. Because I need them. Because I love them.” -Rebecca Wells

 


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Filipino Fridays(2): kids and books

This Friday’s question from the Filipino Readercon:

What were your favorite books as a kid or while you were growing up? Do you still read children’s books? If you could give your younger self a book to read, what would it be?

 

I am blessed to have a lot of books as a kid. looking back, I might have had a little too much.

my favorite childhood books

my favorite childhood books/magazines

Let us start with my borrowed books. The Berenstain bears and Highlights were from the library. I get them on Fridays and enjoy them on the weekend. I would then share the Berenstain bears with my little sister, with me being the storyteller. The highlights magazines however, was very addicting to me! I kept borrowing it till the next issue arrives!  Till I got lucky and won our school library’s best reader of the month-year contest. (Best reader of the month gets a free highlights magazine! I have a copy every month. then by the end of the year a medal. *basically the student most number of read books is the winner.)

Then comes the quarterly goodie box from my Aunt who is living in the States. The box consists of a lot of candies (Jolly rancher, tootsie roll, hershey’s, m&ms) plus kool aid with my prized Archie comics. I get into a squabble with my cousins every time the goodie box arrives, I want dibs on the Archie comics. Sweet Valley kids to university series is a different story. I wait for my older cousins to finish reading it, then I get to read it and its mine. I really don’t like it that much, but hey, its free. I might as well get it.

Disney Adventures are my bonus. I usually get them when I help my mum do the grocery, she buys it for me as a reward for helping. I really love grocery shopping, and I do love Disney Adventures too. Hitting two birds with one stone. Awesome.

Lastly the Old master Q comics that I do not read (its in Chinese) but I just stare at the pictures. I get my hands on these when I visit the dentist (who lives downstairs), and lets me borrow the comics to be returned after I am finished with the book. *This is why I love going to the dentist!*

 

If I could give my little self books, I would shell out for Garfield comics and Peanuts comics and another subscription for Reader’s digest.

I dream of these

I dream to get more of these

Our school has a yearly-week-long  book fair, armed with my saved from allowance 50 php, (My recess allowance is 20php per day) I cant really buy much. But, I really want to buy all the Garfield and Peanuts comics they have!  So, being the little penny pinch-er that I am, I buy all my books on Monday. I could get 3 books.  I would then go read it  all as fast as I could and exchange it for another. ( ex. Garfield 1 in exchange for Garfield 2, repeat process till Friday. Whatever books i get on Friday stays with me.)  I also love getting my Dad’s copy of the Reader’s digest, and reading it first!  Which bugs my Dad, till my Uncle gave me my own subscription of Reader’s digest as a Christmas gift when I turned 10. That was a milestone for me. Receiving my own books in the mail with my name on it! Bliss! 

If I could give my little self books, I would mail myself a box full of comic books. (and probably the illustrated encyclopedia that I covet as a kid.)

 

I still read comic books. But rarely now. Although I do read Young Adult books once in a while.

Looking back, almost all of my books have colored pictures. I love looking at their illustrations.

One of my pastimes those days were re-creating the drawings found on the book to my little sketchpad. I also tried my hand on drawing/creating  my own books, made of folded pieces of letter paper, stapler and colored pencils. Those little hand made books were usually given to my Mum who is obligated to read/understand it. 

Maybe these books were the ones that are responsible for shaping me/inspiring me to be an artist.

Thank you Books. You were really good friends to me. 

 

 

 

 

 


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balai indang

Last Aug 25, 2013 my fellowship went to Balai Indang. I was so glad to get away from work and home stress!

After all the stormy days, work issues, I want a piece of quiet.

entrance to balai

entrance to balai

I liked the place a lot. Feels homey and there were a lot of greenery to soothe tired eyes. I also loved their whimsical decor and the mismatched chairs added to the old world charm.

Inside the Balai are more interesting stuff!

inside balai

inside balai

there are old clocks, Thai figures, Chinese vases, a daybed, toy boat, and lots of stuff loaded with character.

Thai figures

thai figures

balai boat

I was fascinated by this floating side table.

floating side table

floating side table

After a bit of milling around, We had lunch. The lunch was so good! I didn’t even know I was already eating vegetable omelette! I dont have any photos, because I was hungry and ate everything right away we were pressed for time!  We then had games then proceeded to caregroup bible study and a praise and worship session.

Along the way to the worship session, I spotted this.

My wallpaper as of the moment

my wallpaper as of the moment

I sort of realized that we were blessed with good weather, since the past few days  has been a stormy. We can have sunshine!

I then, promptly rejoined the others for our next activities. Sorry for the lack of photos. Its been a blur of activities for me that I didn’t get the chance to take many photos, besides, I went there for quiet time and worship, so for now, I leave you with the colorful flowers found at Balai Indang.

flowers at Balai Indang

flowers at Balai Indang

Given the chance I would like to visit this place again without the rush.

 

Balai Indang 

88 Mahabang Kahoy, Indang, Cavite


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comparison & contrast

I am usually (if not always) compared to others. Born to a strict Chinese household that equates being the best to having more than others, or doing better than others. I am in constant pressure/battle with my peers and cousins on who gets the nicest/well paid jobs, best dressed, be financially well-off, who gets a “complete package” significant other. While this might prove to be a driving force to make me aim for better, I am actually exhausted in having to keep up with them all, that at times I fantasize on running away to some far-flung place and live without the pressure of keeping up on my shoulder.

 

I don’t have a high paying job, I just have a job. I try my best to dress well even if I cannot afford brand names. I am not well-off, from the start I have always been from a plain family. I have a significant other, though he is far from being a “complete package”, and we are not yet a sealed deal… I love him and he strives really hard at work. I am on my toes trying to keep up with everyone. I think about my cousins, can I still hold my own with them? I think about my friends/classmates, can I catch up? I think about the other single girls in my circle, can I match up to their standards of beauty? I think of my travelling friends, can I go exploring like them someday? I think about the entrepreneur friends I have, can I ever do something like they did? I think of my savings, do I have enough?

I think about keeping up at times (that worries me too much because I am a control freak), I feel powerless when I cant do anything/ I have no plan, I then have panic attacks and end up losing sleep. And then went on to have stomach cramps and ulcer attacks.

 

Comparison

Comparison

 

I then pray to God. God, Thank you for everything you gave me, I need/give me this and that…help me with (insert everything society dictates here).

Then, I stay awake or continue my endless list of God please help me with (insert everything society dictates here) till I fall asleep, and wake up without really ending my prayer. I feel bad about myself when I do that. I feel really guilty, that I cease to pray for the rest of the day and wait for bedtime to attempt praying again.

 

This time, I wanted to let it all go. I want to Let God take all my worries.

This is really hard for me but I will try my darn best to let go.

I will stop comparing myself to others.

 

 


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a quick escape

I wish I could be someplace else but since it looks like I am going to be stuck here, I might as well go on a little journey of my own by burrowing my nose on a book. To me, books are encapsulated magic, they take me to places I never could have been, talk to famous people both living and the dead, they are also teach me lot of stuff and keep me company when I have none.

Frederick the Literate -by Charles Wysocki Photo taken from http://www.artifactsgallery.com/

Frederick the Literate -by Charles Wysocki
Photo taken from http://www.artifactsgallery.com/

I am never lonely or alone when I am with a book. I just sit on the couch and I can be in any part of the world, or on the fantasy world. I have friends big and small, furry, scaled, armored, winged, or deep in the ocean. In  there I can be a peasant, a princess or a unicorn! I can also be deep in thought while trying to analyze what the author is saying, but there is never a dull moment when I am with a book. I can go on reading for hours till I fall asleep and the moment I wake up, I want to go reading again.

Most  of my childhood was also spent in the company of books, I used to stay at the library for hours and go home with three books in tow, the next day I will be back again for more books. For the little me at that time,  ultimate comfort was having a good book, a bowl of ice cream and a rainy sky outside my window.

Since it is now the time for the rainy season, books the perfect place to get lost in.

There is no friend as loyal as a book. -Ernest Hemingway