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on recovery

As expected. It turns out that it is not eye infection this time. A blocked duct, or a stye caused my eye issues this time. The eye drops plus antibiotics just couldn’t make it go away.

not my eye, got this photo from the net as this looks a lot like my conditon

not my eye, got this photo from the net to illustrate as this looks a lot like my condition. 

Even if my antibiotics is already Co-Amoxiclav. Bummer. 

Apparently, the right term for my condition was Chalazion. and I am a candidate for incision and curettage.

So last Thursday, I got a minor eye surgery as per the advice of my doctor and is on recovery phase right now.

My incision was done from the inside so no visible scars. Just a bit of swelling can be seen.

Have to keep on wearing my dorky glasses. sigh.

Still on C0-Amoxiclav as well. 

Can’t wait to finally wear contact lenses again! Arrrgggghhh!

 

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dust in my eye

I always wipe my glasses clean before heading out to work. By afternoon, when I take them out to wipe them again I notice a lot of dust has accumulated on the lenses and I am happily unaware of it. I can only see them when I take my glasses and inspect it on a different view.

I am unaware of stuff clouding up my vision.  But I notice the dirt on my desk, monitor…etc. That is, further to me than my own glasses that rest on my nose.

photo taken from the internet

photo taken from the internet

There are certain friends/people in my environment that are quick to notice the dust in my lenses. And hate me for it. At times, I get terribly affected, sometimes I just don’t care but honestly, it hurts. That I start seeing/looking at the dust that clouds up their lenses too and resenting them.

I don’t even think of them as friends anymore.

Getting to a point that I can feel hate. The mere sound of their voice makes me want to hurl.  

I am walking on a thin thread with this. I swing back and forth from hate and tolerance. I pray for patience and wisdom in dealing with them that at times I prayed that they get the feeling that they make me feel. Sad, I know.

This is partly why I am an introvert from the start. I am afraid of people.

Ignoring my “triggers” seems to help. But that can also grow thin. I just remind myself this:

“Judge not, that you be not judged. For with the judgment you pronounce you will be judged, and with the measure you use it will be measured to you. Why do you see the speck that is in your brother’s eye, but do not notice the log that is in your own eye? Or how can you say to your brother, ‘Let me take the speck out of your eye,’ when there is the log in your own eye? You hypocrite, first take the log out of your own eye, and then you will see clearly to take the speck out of your brother’s eye. –Matthew 7:1-5

Dear God, please help me with the dust in my eyes. Give me a heart of compassion.


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Red eye on the left

Over the weekend I noticed the little veins in my eyes turned red. Well, redder than the usual and maybe a bit inflamed.

Yesterday I went to the ophthalmologist to get it checked. As I suspected, there is an infection in my left eye.

I asked about the cause of the said infection, it could probably be from the contact lens, dirt and dust outside.

My doctor gave me Vigadexa drops to be used four times a day and absolutely no using of contact lenses for the whole week. (As of the moment I am on a “nerd mode”, I hate wearing glasses as it always slides/droops down my nose and its such a hassle when it fogs up.) I am already using it for a day now, and it really did help normalize the red veins.

 

A few days to go till Mother’s Day weekend. I am still freaking out on what to give my Mum and Grandma. I tried to buy my Grandma a cashmere wool  shawl, but turns out she is not exactly fond of  shawls. For my mum she doesn’t really dig those white polo shirts I picked out for her.  Either I think of something creative or it will be the default cake plus chocolates or flowers as their present. Any suggestions?