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dust in my eye

I always wipe my glasses clean before heading out to work. By afternoon, when I take them out to wipe them again I notice a lot of dust has accumulated on the lenses and I am happily unaware of it. I can only see them when I take my glasses and inspect it on a different view.

I am unaware of stuff clouding up my vision.  But I notice the dirt on my desk, monitor…etc. That is, further to me than my own glasses that rest on my nose.

photo taken from the internet

photo taken from the internet

There are certain friends/people in my environment that are quick to notice the dust in my lenses. And hate me for it. At times, I get terribly affected, sometimes I just don’t care but honestly, it hurts. That I start seeing/looking at the dust that clouds up their lenses too and resenting them.

I don’t even think of them as friends anymore.

Getting to a point that I can feel hate. The mere sound of their voice makes me want to hurl.  

I am walking on a thin thread with this. I swing back and forth from hate and tolerance. I pray for patience and wisdom in dealing with them that at times I prayed that they get the feeling that they make me feel. Sad, I know.

This is partly why I am an introvert from the start. I am afraid of people.

Ignoring my “triggers” seems to help. But that can also grow thin. I just remind myself this:

“Judge not, that you be not judged. For with the judgment you pronounce you will be judged, and with the measure you use it will be measured to you. Why do you see the speck that is in your brother’s eye, but do not notice the log that is in your own eye? Or how can you say to your brother, ‘Let me take the speck out of your eye,’ when there is the log in your own eye? You hypocrite, first take the log out of your own eye, and then you will see clearly to take the speck out of your brother’s eye. –Matthew 7:1-5

Dear God, please help me with the dust in my eyes. Give me a heart of compassion.

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balai indang

Last Aug 25, 2013 my fellowship went to Balai Indang. I was so glad to get away from work and home stress!

After all the stormy days, work issues, I want a piece of quiet.

entrance to balai

entrance to balai

I liked the place a lot. Feels homey and there were a lot of greenery to soothe tired eyes. I also loved their whimsical decor and the mismatched chairs added to the old world charm.

Inside the Balai are more interesting stuff!

inside balai

inside balai

there are old clocks, Thai figures, Chinese vases, a daybed, toy boat, and lots of stuff loaded with character.

Thai figures

thai figures

balai boat

I was fascinated by this floating side table.

floating side table

floating side table

After a bit of milling around, We had lunch. The lunch was so good! I didn’t even know I was already eating vegetable omelette! I dont have any photos, because I was hungry and ate everything right away we were pressed for time!  We then had games then proceeded to caregroup bible study and a praise and worship session.

Along the way to the worship session, I spotted this.

My wallpaper as of the moment

my wallpaper as of the moment

I sort of realized that we were blessed with good weather, since the past few days  has been a stormy. We can have sunshine!

I then, promptly rejoined the others for our next activities. Sorry for the lack of photos. Its been a blur of activities for me that I didn’t get the chance to take many photos, besides, I went there for quiet time and worship, so for now, I leave you with the colorful flowers found at Balai Indang.

flowers at Balai Indang

flowers at Balai Indang

Given the chance I would like to visit this place again without the rush.

 

Balai Indang 

88 Mahabang Kahoy, Indang, Cavite