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summer stuff

After the holy week, I have been staying at home to Netflix and chill. *I just finished 13 reasons why* Still waiting for the next episode of Riverdale though.

13 reasons why -photo from the internet

I have also been happily hoarding yet another batch of lippies. Colorpop has a sale going on and I just couldn’t resist! Eagerly asked my cousin from the US to get me some so that I can see what the liquid lipstick hype is all about. I got those ultra satin ones: Aquarius, Echo park, Chandelier, Alyssa, and Dopey.

yey for new lippies!

Also did some closet purging. I let go of my clothes that became too small for me, and found replacements for my favorites. –I am still on a lookout for a lace top, and a chambray one.  I also got new tops since its summer and I am constantly wearing shorts. Pinstripe seems to be the thing this summer, this blue one from Kamiseta fits comfortably and on trend too!

Feeza top in blue from Kamiseta

I also got this cute red one with prints on the sides from Plains and Prints.

KITH S/L from plains and prints

At home we have been trying to eat healthier. Swapping ice cream for yogurt, having salad for dinner at least once or twice a week.

shrimp pomelo salad for dinner at home

Sice it is “sweat season” it is always better to have more sheets (for the rotation). We got this exact set, at a discounted price too!

from H&M home

Leaving with a summery photo taken from a summer luau we attended last weekend. How about you?

wearing our multicolored leis for a summery vibe

how is your summer going? Till the next post!

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My acne journey: products I am using this summer season 2015

Summer is in full swing and is wreaking havoc to my skin. Here I go again. It seems like I am better of with the cold climate months, my skin magically clears up. I think my skin did not get the memo that we are living in the sunny Philippines. Mad hate.

Currently, I am religiously going to my dermatologist, once a week for cleaning. Before, I go there every other week. But since, I need to have clear skin for my big day and the days before that, I have no choice but to really drag myself to the clinic weekly. Every week there is a lot cleaned out, but still a lot remain or pop-up. I freaking hate it. Shelling out and getting pricked is not really something to look forward to.

My face is an oil slick with bumps mostly on my forehead. (I drink a lot of water now, so no. I am not dehydrated. My skin just hates me.)

After another painful pricking session. I asked the derma what else can he recommend, besides the glycerin soap and derma-made toners I am using. I also told him that the glycerin soap seem to lack the cleaning feel it used to have. 

get me through the hot summer days please.

get me through the hot summer days please.

He recommended me to take doxycycline once a day for ten days. Then got me to to use acne-aid soap, continue with my toners and lastly use epiduo. My skin got a bit less bumpy. Thank God. But after 4 days, I feel the “burning-skin-feeling”. So I topped it all off with a light moisturizer I already used months ago.

Does your skin breakout on hot summer days too?

acne journey update-summer of 2015-

*All my reviews, opinions, and other stuff expressed here are my own and based on my own experience with the product. This is not a sponsored post, I paid for this (from) my own pocket.


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My acne journey: the products I used throughout the years, and my continuous battle

I was asked by my classmate way back in third year high, I envy you; how do you keep your clear skin?  I told her, nothing. I don’t have any secret to it. Deep inside, I really thought I was blessed with good skin genes.

How wrong was I to assume? I am stupid enough to assume.

I had the pimple/acne problem later than my friends. I had it right after high school. The summer I left my high school to start a new life in college, the pimples also started.

My mom was a bit worried, she had pimples too when she was my age she told me. She then advised me to use Johnson’s baby shampoo. I did what I was told, even if baby shampoo made my hair more stringy and greasy. I also used Johnson’s baby soap, for my face. I also got myself Eskinol overnight pimple gel, that I always see at TV commercials. That seemed to work for a while but, time progressed and I was getting oilier and the pimples are growing too. They are growing in size. (I was about 15-16 years old this time)

I was also prescribed a huge bottle of Cetaphil facial wash, along with a tube of Pan Oxyl acnegel, by a derma (Family derma) who happily said child, you are now a dalaga (Filipino word for a lady). How was I to be happy and excited to be a lady if I have a growing pimple problem?  I have clear days and put-a-paper-bag on my head days.

acne journey-1 copy

Oh, I also loved the blue Ponds powder that they discontinued. Why pond’s? why?! It effectively hides the redness of my skin.

At seventeen years old. Second year in college. Semester break. I had rashes on my tummy that I paid no attention to. After a day, I have a huge boil in my forehead. A trip to the family doctor confirmed, I got the dreaded CHICKENPOX.

I was in denial! My mum told me that I was vaccinated against the pox! So, why do I have it?!

I can’t bathe, I was itchy all over, I have scars all over. I was a polka dotted mess, with oilier face and bigger persistent pimples.

It was hell.

I applied Sebo de macho to my scars, like my life depended on it. I wanted to get back to normal ASAP!

I felt very itchy and there are now red patches on my skin, it actually made my condition worse. Went to the derma (near my mum’s office) to get it checked. The picky skin I have got irritated from the Sebo de macho. Stupid skin. Was given tubs of Kojic acid. (at that time Kojic acid was not that mainstream and was very pricey. 500php for a small tub of cream. A tub of cream lasts about 5 days max on me.)

The little self confidence I had shattered. My friends are afraid to see me for fear that they get chickenpox. I was segregated when I returned to class, I was asked to stay at the corner of the classroom, with two rows of seats apart. My classmates stayed away from me. I went to hiding in my denim jacket and refused to remove it even if it was sweltering outside. I stayed at the library during free time to hide from people and also for the air conditioner to soothe my itchy scab infested skin.

I got more pimples than before, this time bigger than before. I have brown scars all over, I was a pathetic polka dotted person. If only I could die now. I was depressed as hell. I envy everyone who has clear skin. I prayed every night for speedy healing.

I spent every peso I have buying products that I thought could help me get back my previous skin. Even if I don’t eat lunch, as long as I get products to get my skin back….desperate much.

acne journey-2 after chicken pox copy

I have Likas papaya soap as my body soap, Eskinol calamansi toner for my whole body, a pumice stone, St Ives Apricot scrub for my face and body. Nivea whitening lotion for the body, and Nivea whitening cream for the face, and a oil regulating toner. My skin is starting to heal, in a painfully slow manner. And with the limited amount of money I have, I can’t keep up buying the brands I was using. I switched to Ponds detox white, and Skin white lotion.

The scars are now a pale pink/reddish brown dots on my skin.

It was pure torture. Mental/psychological torture.

Slowly I healed. It took me about a year to fade all the scars the pox left me with.

By this time I was very much into sun protection as I am afraid the brown scar spots would come back when I am exposed to the sun. I spent all of my money on Nivea sunblock. In the highest spf concentration I could find. I still have my pimples/acne, it never went back to being small.

I graduated college. Found a job. (I was 20 years old then)

Squirreled some pesos to get more skin care products. I shopped at Rustan’s essences as they have the “latest” skin care items, I got Akin Hypoallergenic Shampoo (goodbye Johnson’s Baby shampoo) , Used Murad moisturizer and sunblock, and invested on Kose Junkisui a Japanese serum for acne prone skin. Also got the pricey Mario Badescu drying lotion, that did nothing to help my skin.

acne journey-3 road to recovery copy

The pimples stayed but my skin is definitely better than before.

My aunt recommended I use Burt’s bees as she uses the brand for my acne prone cousin too. So, off to beauty bar I went and got the Burt’s bees garden tomato soap, toner and shampoo. Brought Olay moisturizer for day and night. Using VMV armada as my sunblock and Nivea hypoallergenic powder to counter the stickiness of the sunblock.

acne journey-4 stablize copy

Then Burt’s bees garden tomato soap got discontinued. Disaster struck. (I was 21-22 years old by this time)

My skin went on a full rage mode. My pimples are now bigger than the norm, and they are painful. Without a “head”, it’s just painful bumps of red that lasts for weeks. I hated Burt’s bees for discontinuing the soap, I went to all the Beauty bar stores I know and came up empty. Defeated. I headed to the derma (Family derma) again.

This time, the acne/pimples has evolved. Cystic Acne.

I have to take a isotretinoin, a powerful drug. That has a lot of complications/side effects.

That I have to subject myself to monthly blood tests. I have to take ROACCUTANE.

acne journey-5 steroid copy

A box is good for a month. A box costs a little below 3k, plus monthly waiver/consultation from the derma that sets me back another 600php. Plus facial treatment from the derma that adds another 1k to the mix. I am bleeding out almost 5k a month. Almost my whole salary is spent on my skin. On the first two boxes, I get aggravated breakouts, but that was expected said the derma.

I see my derma once a month.

After 3-4 boxes, my skin is significantly clearer. And my wallet is significantly thinner too.

I am also used to getting my blood test every month that I can assist the med tech on how to locate my veins. I can laugh and carry a conversation while they are getting a syringe full of my blood, and look forward to getting the results to get another waiver and buy roaccutane.

By this time, I am using only derma brought medicines. And a cherry Chapstick to counter the dryness brought about using the isotretinoin. My eyes are also dry that I have to place eye drops from time to time.

After 13 boxes. I stopped Roaccutane. Because it has huge drawbacks. See the list of its side effects here.

But, I’m thankful for the drug. It cured me.

Or so I thought. It was just a break for my heavy derma expenditures.

I continued using Derma brought medicines for another 2 and a half years when the pimples slowly crept back up. The derma medicines are not working anymore. I panicked. (I’m already 25-26 years old!)

Went to see another derma (this time a derma from St. Luke’s Hospital) who also prescribed Roaccutane.

Again I took the drug. For the second instance. This still entails the monthly blood tests and facials/medicines.

This time around I consumed 7 boxes and then was told to stop. I still see my derma once a month, for treatments. But the price of the treatments has grown significantly. I was shelling out 4k a month for her facials. With no more money to go back, I searched for a new derma.

I found one near my old high school. This time around my derma is male. That doesn’t charge much. (less than 1k! this is like a bargain for me!) Good for me, but he requires me to go see him for facial treatment at least every other week (that’s twice a month). I go see him three times a month just to be sure. I also get my medicines from him.

I also go see a female Medicard derma also near my old school, at a hospital clinic, when I have the time. This Derma told me to use the classic Colgate, Pantene nature care shampoo, stop taking vitamin B. Take vitamin A instead.

Technically, I have two Dermatologists. And I still have acne. I still envy people who are blessed with good skin.

To others who also suffer from acne, you are not alone. It’s ok to be depressed and all but, take the fight. Keep on searching for the “cure”. We are all different and my cure may not be the cure your skin needs but we have to patiently look for our own solution. Just think of it this way, we will not age as quickly as those who have good skin on their youth!

 

*All my reviews, opinions, and other stuff expressed here are my own and based on my own experience with the product. This is not a sponsored post, I paid for this (from) my own pocket.

**I am currently 27 years old and I still have the burden called acne/pimples. I am way past the teen-age hormone years and close to the big 30, but my skin still thinks it is a teen-ager. This is a rather personal topic for me. I won’t post pictures as I hate letting people see my bad skin.

***I can’t wear skin make-up (foundation). Only eye and lip make-up are ok with me.


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summer pastime

One of my cherished summer pastime with my best friend is creating our beaded bracelets or woven bracelets made from cross stitch threads. I was pretty surprised to see my little sister (Nicole) making her own bracelets out of what seems like small rubber bands. I was told that that is the latest craze with the younger set, and is called loom bands.

rainbow colored loom bands

rainbow colored loom bands

She just bought one pack this morning and went on to create this before bedtime.

loom band bracelet

loom band bracelet

Fast learner eh?

I was actually hoping she make me a colorful one to match my summer outfits.

 


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up the game

I’m on a roll today! I crossed of half of my to do list for the week. Feeling excited to channel all my pent up anger energy into training later.

photo from pinterest

photo from pinterest

Since summer is already upon us, I am making extra effort in concentrating on my core. I am far off from being thin or getting abs, I have a different goal in mind. 

I wanted to get better. Used to have dextroscoliosis on my thoracic spine (back in 2011), with the help of my friendly coaches. My patience paid off. My back is in a better shape normal right now. I can even deadlift half of my own weight. How’s that for improvement? *belts out Britney’s  stonger than yesterday….*

Time to step up. I’m gunning for a better stronger body figure.

I could use the extra confidence and endorphins, exercise brings.

Bring it Coach.

 

I’m addicted to a really tough workout. I like to be drenched in sweat when I’m done because I feel accomplished. -Alison Sweeney


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Organic bath

While passing by Lush at the mall, I decided to go inside to check out the strongly scented merchandise.

I sniffed at most of their bar soaps. And I am happy to have sniffed something that I like, make that two of a something.

I am liking Bohemian and Sexy peel, both citrus scented. Citrus scents never fail to perk me up! Zingy, revitalizing and energizing! I really like the scent of it.

So, I am hard pressed on choosing only one as I have a lot of soaps stocked at home. In the end I chose Sexy peel. (just because, of the sexy! hahahaha!)

sexy peel soap

Lush’s Sexy peel soap

Lush is a cosmetics company based in the United Kingdom. Lush makes and sells a variety of handmade products, including soaps, shower gels, shampoos and hair conditioners, bath bombs, bubble bars, hand and body lotions and face masks. That are all organic and without any animal fat! Lush uses fruit and vegetables, essential oils, synthetic ingredients, honey and beeswax in their products.

Simple, straightforward and honest.

  • They are also organic and doesn’t test on animals! A definite plus point! They test on volunteers instead. 

Lush products are vegetarian and uses less preservatives and feature grapefruit juice, vanilla beans, avocado butter, rosemary oil, and fresh papaya and coconut. They also contain more traditional soap ingredients, including glycerin, linalool, and methyl- and propyl-parabens.

*The safety of these parabens? they are made from plant materials. Only the liquid products contain parabens. 

 

What they say:

Super citrus soap, bursting with fresh a-peel. It’s time to bring Sexy to the shower. Jump start your morning with a juicy citrus splash of organic orange juice and zesty lime oil. It’s the perfect solution to recharge your sex appeal when you’re feeling sluggish. Simply unpeel your clothes and get to work with our scrubby soap loaded with citrus peels to exfoliate and tone your skin while you suds up. You’ll feel fresh and squeaky clean again in no time and the revitalizing citrus juices and oils will get your senses going.

Do they live up to the hype?

The citrus-y smell is good! Makes me happy to get in the shower. Provided that this soap is organic, it actually produces a good amount of lather. It has lemon zests that would scrub your skin and this is good and bad at the same time, It is good since it mildly exfoliates the skin, but when the citrus zests start poking out it can be a bit harsh. It makes me feel squeaky clean after the bath, but without that citrus-y scent, all that amazing smell is left at the shower.  This is good for oily skinned people, but I will not recommend it to dry skinned people, as it can be a bit drying. I think this will also be good for a summer soap. However, I see nothing special about this soap. Would try another soap from lush next time.

*Price? I got this for 232.75php. (It is sold for 245php for 100 grams.)

*All my reviews, opinions, and other stuff expressed here are my own and based on my own experience with the product. This is not a sponsored post, I paid for this (from) my own pocket. 


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Good old days

My sister made a lot of ice candy for us at home and as she offered me one, and I am suddenly filled with nostalgia.

photo from pinterest

photo from Pinterest

I miss those carefree summer days, we would play from sunrise to sundown. And for the whole summer that we would have no allowance, we made ice candy to sell to other kids for profit and for our own tummies as well. Normally we make the ice candies as soon as my parents left for work in the morning, by early afternoon the ice candy is ready to be sold. It consists of fruit juice or chocolate milk and a lot of sugar, on rare occasions we used cola! Placed in small tubular plastic and frozen in the fridge. Very simple really but, we sold a lot. From our initial capital of 50 pesos we earned 300 pesos by the end of summer.  Not bad eh? It was our “monkey business” to get money to buy french fries and cheese sticks from the bakery near our house.

 

It is a sweet memory of our childhood days.

Oh, how I yearn for the simplicity of days that has gone by.